“You ready?”
I turn my head to see the person who had spoke, although his voice is the most recognizable to me. It always has been. I feel a smile tugging on my lips as I scan his body. He looks amazing, as usual. The tailored suit, styled hair and smart shoes all perfect on him and I can’t help but stare.
If only he wasn’t just my best man.
Shut up.
“Yeah, just really nervous,” I lie, messing with my tie. I’ll never be ready.
“You’ll be fine,” Chris smiles reassuringly, pulling me into a hug. My heart picks up pace as I seem to lose myself in his embrace, but it doesn’t last long. It never does. A quick hug and a smile and that’s it.
If we ever see each other.
We hardly see each other anymore. With the wedding being planned and him having his own life, it’s hard to ever find the time. We’re lucky to get a phone call once a month anymore.
I just wish it was like it used to be.
“Come on,” Chris laughs, pulling away from me slightly. “Everyone’s waiting.”
I can feel my smile drop just a little as he pulls away and my body is almost certain it’s never going to get anything near that embrace again.
And I can help but feel this is what’s it’s going to be like. I marry Hazel and I loose Chris, he slips right from my fingers. I subtly shake my head, to knock away these thoughts. The thoughts that linger in the back of my mind constantly, that will never go away.
I want to marry Hazel. I love her. I tell myself again. Fill up my mind with these lies, hoping one day they might become the truth.
I want to marry Hazel. I love her.
Chris is staring at me, waiting for me to go but I don’t move. My eyes start to brim with tears that I try so hard to keep at bay and my hands shake a little.
Stop being so dramatic.
Chris’ eyes narrow as his face floods with concern, “PJ? Are you okay?”
“Yeah! Why wouldn’t I be?” My voice cracks as I speak, giving away any hope I had of lying to him. Chris smiles softly at me, hugging me quickly one more time.
“You’ll be fine once you’re married.”
Yeah. I keep telling myself that.
I want to marry Hazel. I love her.
I HOPE YOU DON'T GET TOO MUCH SCHOOL WORK BECAUSE I WANT THESE NEXT PARTS SO BAD
I HOPE SO TOO!
YES
GOOD
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